I’m not even going to begin writing all of that down. But let me tell you this : Ordering on a UK website from the Netherlands, ain’t no easy feat. Pffff.. But the long story short : My Dutch friend who lived there for years, let me order it on her boyfriend’s address there, and paid with her UK bank account. And after many hours, lots of waiting and frustration, it finally worked out. The dvds will be delivered at his place, and eventually will come my way.
But it was one hell of a ride to get there! 0_O
Useless as ever. Even belittling at times. When I mentioned I added a new thing to my routine, because I’d be up so early every day (even in the weekends) due to the meds, we could go hiking early on Saturday morning, she went all like : “Well! You see there? You came up with that all by yourself! You don’t even need me”. Yeah… She really did.
Geeeeezzz. I’ve had TEN YEARS of therapy in my life! TEN! And I read just about every self-help book that is out there in the world. Plus I’ve managed to get this far my whole life, trying everything I could think of. AND on top of that, Planning was never the issue! It’s the execution of the plan, that’s the issue! AND : I”M NOT STUPID! Why would I not be able to think of something like that on my own to begin with!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?
ARGH. Don’t even get me started. It was so belittling.
She also cut through my stories like 10 times. Would you mind letting me finish a sentence?!
If she does that again, I will definitely tell her to shut it and let me talk.
She kept going ahead of my story. I like to tell it in order, the way it happened. But she wants to know the outcome straight away.
She also dared say, when mentioning what we discussed last time, “The tips and ideas WE came up with”, for me to try to get moving, to do my tasks. WE! They were all my tried ideas! She had Nothing!! No advise or tips for me at all!!!
Really had no idea how mad it all made me, until now, when typing it down. She, and the whole uselessness of it all, annoys the hell outta me..!
Anyway, moving on..
Not much to tell. Which I find good! *thumbs up* I started yesterday, with the lowest of the lowest dose. And I’m not even sure that what I felt (as side effects) was real, or my imagination. It wasn’t enough to mention now. Sadly I don’t feel any positive effects yet either. But Friday I will talk to my psychiatrist, and he will probably tell me to up the dose this weekend. So, curious to see what that’ll do!
Not a whole lot of that going around. I did finish my triangular shawl. I will post a picture at the bottom. Along with some Bullet journal pics I hadn’t shared yet.
Other than that, I’ve just been busy with 10,000 other things. Around the house, appointments, having my friend over, and I had a birthday Sunday. From my sister in law, who lives a 1 hour train ride away from us (and 1 hour back). Needed to buy presents on Saturday for her. And on Sunday, after the Birthday, we went into the city and did some more shopping. And as if I hadn’t spent enough money just yet, I ordered all those dvds today! *omg* xD
Remainder of the week :
Nothing planned so far. I did join a mystery shopper website. So I hope I get to do some Mystery Shopping. I also have to go to the vet and buy some more meds for our ill kitty.
And beside all that, only chores, that walk I mentioned on Saturday morning, and HOPEFULLY I finally find some time to do some more crafting.
Really need to finish October in my bullet journal. And I set up a “sock” in the same yarn as my shawl. It’s not specific sock yarn, and I plan on only wearing them inside the house, while watching dvds on the couch ^_^
As upset as I might be about the therapy thing, and as wired & chaotic about the UK order thing, I’m actually in a pretty good mood. So, either these meds do work a little, or they are the world’s best placebo! ;-D lol
So to end this post, here are some pictures I’d like to share with you.
Thanks for reading, and take care ❤
My shawl :
Bullet journal :
I don’t believe I’ve shown this yet. The skirt I dyed with coffee! 😀
And last, but not least : a while back I already finished my reading challenge for this year! I hadn’t set the goal too high. A book a month. But because I was unable to focus on my reading, I started paying for storytel again and listen to it while knitting. And that definitely made things speed along xD
And on that note, I wish you all a very pleasant evening and a good night ^_^